I Don’t Understand Some People

16 Feb

Emotion - Dont' Step On MeI do not understand people that feel rudeness and sarcasm will carry them through the world. I’ve been treated by people like this in the past and the present. My logical, psychoanalytical mind understands, but my emotional self doesn’t. To be “hit” with attitude, with words that are clearly meant to cut, makes me cringe. I want to just turn away and bury myself somewhere. It bothers me that such people can still, so easily, tear me apart.

When I get hit like this, it hurts at first and then my anger blooms. When I was young I had to go to an anger management class in high school because of my “violent temper”. I can hold my reactions for so long and then I lash out. If I lash out physically, I hit or throw things. Sharp things. But I also lash out in words and when I’m online, my words come out vicious.

I haven’t lashed out in either way for a very long time. I do my best to keep myself from situations that trigger my anger. I also write and draw in order to reign in the anger and hurt.

Today was a day when I came across two such people. There was no reason for them to have reacted as they did and at the end of the day, their words showed what they really were. I’m somewhat pleased that I tempered myself and didn’t strike back at them with words. Hours later, though, and deep down I wish I could reflect back upon them what I felt.

Some days… I realize I’m still pretty far underneath my rock.

Tags: Digital Abstracts

12 Responses

  1. Rebecca says:

    Oh do I understand. and I totally don’t get it, how someone you barely know, just met or know very well can be rude, cutting and just plain mean and nasty.
    I had this happened to me sat. I got gas it was freezingly bitter outside and all I said was ‘man it’s cold to be quickly greeted with a full fledged burst of big oil addictions opinion by the owner of the fully stocked with gas buyers station who continued down a path of cutting me down, personally. Talk about biting the hand that feeds you, it took alot for me to walk out…. and not go back in.
    R;)

  2. Cindy says:

    Screw repressing it…people (including myself I will admit) who are rude and cutting are either counting on no response so when someone does it oftentimes shows them the reflection of their own behavior or act that way because they think Everybody does so you may as well dish back.

    If you can stay cool and take the high road without makeing yourself crazy for the rest of the day then do so. But if you cant; let it loose on the person who handed it to you. Screw ‘em for bringing it on themselves.

    And if all else fails…bust out the jelly jars ;)

  3. TN Chick says:

    I agree with Terri, too. I will never understand some people but then I don’t suppose we’re suppose t o understand them all. :) Just smile at them and when possible, treat them with kindness. Kindness kills some people like that.

  4. cloud_eyora says:

    “you are having a really bad day aren’t you?”

    i need to remember this one! Rude people…come in such different varieties of rudeness! Many different flavors, like baskin robbins…

  5. lydia says:

    Hello, I know what you mean. Since living in Germany I have come across a lot of people who treat me really badly because I can’t absolutely understand what they’re saying. And when I try to talk German they look at me with a smirk on their face, makes me want to cry. I wish I could talk back and tell them what i really think. but you are stronger when you don’t.

    Anyone who makes you feel like that are not worth your time.

  6. Ruthie Rader says:

    Who ticked you off? Whoever it was is inconsequential in the long-range scheme of things.

    YA KNOW!

    If you get miffed, then send an email to me. And I will send you back a feel-good pill.

    And if you want to start smiling, go to my blog and listen to my first audio-post in a loooong time!

    It sounds like I called from the moon!

    But at least now you will be able to finally put a voice to my face.

    LOL!

    Hang in there, Lady…you know that I’ll be your friend, anytime.*

  7. Joey says:

    Hi!
    Really cool artwork! I love your blog design!
    Yeah, rude people are everywhere, and while I agree with Terri’s points, sometimes it IS important to put people in their place. Especially if you care for them – like friends and family.
    Read your comment on Kelly’s blog (www.spiffiness.net/blog); men are attracted to female villains, too! :)

  8. Zvanoizu says:

    You’re awesome. *big hugs*

  9. Michael says:

    Huh?

    Interesting art today.
    I wonder if what I see says more about me or more about what you wanted us to see.

    Take Care
    Michael

  10. KathyHowe says:

    I really liked what Terri West said!

  11. Terri West says:

    Some people are hurting – when they act that way- they are trying to make themselves feel better at the expense of others. I find people like that to be pitied and prayed for. Usually all I do is say — “you are having a really bad day aren’t you?” and that is enough to get them to realize how they are acting…

  12. christa says:

    Just like you I don’t understand that kind of attitude.

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