Except for one tiny spot on my lower lip, my face is all pretty much back to normal. I was taking 2000mcg’s of B12 a day to combat this, but I think I’ll go back to just 1000mcg. I’m not really big on the megadoses… of anything. I need to find out what foods I can eat to get some natural B12 in me. And also, it seems, some Folic Acid.
Going to see the counselor tomorrow morning, and I’m not real enthused about it. She wanted me to do some “homework” which was to research the Lupus Foundation’s walkathon being held here in Spokane next month. I found out the info on it, because I was curious, but I really don’t want to help out with anything.
As mentioned in my first post about the counselor, my tentative goal is to “make a friend”. That’s easy for me to do. I don’t need brushing up on my people skills. However, I am VERY picky about where I want to meet people I would like to socialize with. I’m not a crowd sort of person, I don’t care for parties, I don’t drink, and so on. If I were to choose a place to meet people, I’d say church; even though my beliefs aren’t quite what all Episcopalians believe. The problem is, I can’t GET to church. There is no bus to church on Sunday, even though I’d be willing to get up early, early for morning service. My next choice would then be to take a class of some sort. I haven’t been able to find swimming, or an exercise class that is either near me, or affordable. I’d even take an art class, but again, there’s money, location, and time of the class to deal with.
Before anyone decides to roll their eyes at me, go lock your car in the garage for a month and try living your life without it. Then you’ll understand what I’m dealing with. Not only must I deal with the fact that I don’t drive and have to rely upon a bus, I have to deal with my own insecurities and fears about going into a new situation by myself.
A trap of my own making, I suppose. Except, I’m doing my best to break free of it. What do they say? Baby steps….
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very very happy you got the feeling back in your extremities…I would miss that scowl you have for stupid people ;)
*Cindy’s eyes roll so high she can see the inside of her forhead*
Im saying this cuz I love you and youve been my best friend for almost half my life Jayne
Jayne…you dont drive, you never have…of course you have to rely on the bus…but you dont like living “downtown” in the last two cities youve lived in so you are rendered remote from most things that would get you around more people.
I understand what youre “dealing with” that you cant control…hearing about how bad it was in Redding broke my heart on a constant basis for years. But now that your “better able” to get outside than you were back then being “picky” makes it almost as bad as before. Maybe thats part of the reason the counselor gave you “the assignment”. No you should not start hanging around at biker bars but…
Ive been without a car for almost 2 years…I commute 7 hours a day by bus at a cost of $150 a month to get to work and back. I had to saty with my MOTHER for 4 weeks while Scott was outve town cuz otherwise the likelyhood was I wouldnt have been able to get up at 5.45 every morning for the walk to the first bus at 6.37 AM.
Yes its meant doing less shows but Im also active in Monterey Vampire LARP by asking friends for rides and covering gas or getting a ride from Scott either to or from but not both. I make a point of going out with friends wether Scott can go or not. Last night that meant hopping a bus, then a $10 cab ride than a 10 minute walk to a friends house and a drive home from one of those friends to Santa Cruz after several hours of hanging out and haveing fun. Scotts being able to drive is an advantage you dont have but that will dissapear once hes gainfully employed or knee deep in rehersals. Some of my theatre friends and I saw a show in San Jose because I found discount tickets online (13.50 as opposed to $40) I covered the drivers ticket and mine so others chipped in on gas and we had a great time.
I understand you guys are on a tight budget…but a little volunteering or a little networking can go a long way. Try a Spokane meetup thats centered around soemthing you like or lurk around livejournal for locals. Maybe if you cab it to a couple of those church services you’ll find soemone that’ll be willing to drive you. The same can apply to art or exercise classes. Does Spokane have a museum or gallery of any note (or no note if you wanna avoid the crowds)cuz museums always seem hard up for volunteers.
I dont know Im ranting, dont mind me.
I’m so glad your face is back! I’ve been taking what they call “Super B Stress Complex Vitamins” it has all of the “B’s” hanging around in there and it seems to be giving me more energy.
I have a car, but I still isolate. =O( It’s hard being almost 39 with a young ‘un and to find a friend that is my age, has things in common with me is next to impossible. There are some younger Mom’s that live on this street, but they are all about some sort of Drama. With eachother too! I kind of hermit myself away to stay out of it all.
Although I don’t ever want to move back to NJ, that is where my sisters, mom, friends and family are. It’s hard moving somewhere and getting back into that nook of sorts. Maybe someday… until then…
I’ll be your online Buddy? =O) -Margie