First of all, to anyone wondering, yes, I am alive. I am seriously debating on whether or not to keep this blog as I just don’t seem to have anything to add to it lately. I don’t want to talk about my aches and pains, my doctors, fighting with prescriptions and so on. I have no interest in the social sites (although, to be honest, I wasn’t terribly social to begin with) and trying to keep up with them is annoying.
My regrets are the Blog Ninjas and the Mystery Topic Challenge. I think they’re dead, or dying very long and drawn out deaths. It’s hard to keep something alive when even you can’t drum up interest in yourself in your own project. I hate letting down everyone that put forth such an effort into these, but I have to wonder, how long do you keep flogging a fallen horse before it will get back up.
I know I sound depressed, and I’m really not. My attention is off elsewhere. I’m writing my fanfiction, which I think only a select portion of the world’s population is truly interested in. The fact that the story I’ve been working on has taken on a life of its own and is now over 150,000 words is just a kick! Being told by long time friends that I’m wasting my imagination on a piece of fanfic that I’ll never make any money on, bugs me.
I’m a STORYTELLER. I don’t care if the story I’m telling someone is an original one, or something set in the Doctor Who universe, Harry Potter universe or someone else’s creation. My pleasure comes in telling a story to an audience that appreciates it. I used to be a library reader and I read stories to my little brother, and I made up stories to tell the neighborhood kids. It took me a long time to realise that’s what I love doing. Right now, I’ve found an audience at fanfic sites, so there’s where I am. The rest of the time, I am reading. A lot.
Anyway, I thought that those few of you that peek in from time to time to see what I’m up to deserved to know what going through my head these days. I’m alive. Life is decent. I’m happy.
Tags: Blog Ninjas, Doctor Who, friends, Harry Potter, Writing
I’d have to agree with the above comments.
If dropping the blog is what you have to do, then that is what you have to do.
I’ve not been stopping by on a regular basis (mainly due to life taking on, well, a life all on it’s own), but it has always been a pleasure to read what you write and knowing you a little bit better for it.
As far as the other writing goes – again, you do/write whatever makes YOU happy, who cares about what anyone else thinks?
Good luck with whatever you decide.
Your last three sentences say it, mostly that you’re happy. I always found much of interest in your blog so I hope it continues, but if it isn’t fulfilling for you, then take a sabbatical.
If your fanfiction make you happy, then who cares whether everyone else likes it or not. You enjoy telling stories, tell them.
Like the other comments, I have gone through periods where I just didn’t want to post. I learned to not post. If you need a break take one. If you come back, I will still be here, if you don’t, then enjoy whatever you do to tell your stories and know we will miss you.
Hey Jayne. I stopped blogging on a normal basis for almost an entire year recently. The ideas, thoughts and imagination just weren’t there. Much had to do with the lives I was involved in at the time almost in part, becoming my own but without the permission to expand or write about them in the way that I really believe would be effective.
Creativity and writing is coming back slowly, but it is coming back. Reading various short stories, about all I have time for these days, always spark a thought or string of thoughts that lead up to a nice little writing. Keeps me in practice.
Reading your thoughts, spurts and sighs – does put notions on my brain’s library shelves. Especially ones that signify that I’m not alone in many of the ailments we share.
Carry on. You are an inspiration.
Thank you for the kind words, Frank. I figure that before I take it down without thought, I’ll just leave it be for awhile.
Not too long ago, I think it was last month, I was thinking of toppling my blog as well. But then I realized that my blog was, in a way, therapeutic for me. I never really cared who read my blog, in fact, I never even gave the URL to my friends who had suggested it in the first place. It was just a place for me to release my, sometimes over the top, anger without caring about apologizing to anybody afterwards.
If you do choose to drop this blog, than I say good luck to you and thank you for giving everybody the opportunity to know you.