My appointment with the boob smasher and then the optician won’t be happening today. I slept well last night despite staying up rather late. However, as soon as I began breakfast (after taking a spitload of pills) I started getting pain twinges, and my hands began to tremble, a lot.

Too scared about going to the two places by myself and worried that the pain or shakiness wouldn’t leave me be while I was out, I canceled both appointments.

I’m just really feeling that with all the progress I had made about getting out on a regular basis and going by myself to those familiar places, is back to square one. I feel like a loser.

The pain is bothersome, but the panicky feeling is ten times worse. I just don’t want to be out in public. It’s mortifyingly embarrassing.

Tags: art, optician, pain

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