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Haiti Relief – MercyCorps


14 Jan

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The recent tragedy in Haiti is just beyond heartbreaking. Richard and I made a donation this morning and I hope everyone who reads this can donate something as well. MercyCorps is the charity we chose.

Other charities that we found recommended are:

Many local organizations and churches are also accepting donations, as well, so if that is something you wish to do, please don’t hesitate.

As one of the world’s poorest countries, Haiti was the least prepared for such a disaster and their recovery is going to take years.

The Beginning of a New… Everything


25 Dec

Tags: panic attacks
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I am really trying not to view the resurgence of that pain and the panic attack as a step backwards. I know, initially I did, but I can’t afford to. I’m trying also not to think that I also have a visit to the neurologist in my near future.

I have begun a new beginning, of sorts, and it’s still quite fragile. I need to think and to do carefully or it will all be blown apart.

I haven’t the patience for this sort of thing. I never have. I recognize, now, that such impatience is one of those things that’s held me back. I can’t allow it to do so this time.

I will make a New Year’s Resolution this year, but it won’t have anything to do with trying to lose weight. That just sets me up for failure and an additional ten pounds. I don’t need to do that.

My mother’s gift to me this year was the Book of Common Prayer that had been given to her by her aunt when she was about ten. I always wanted to play with the book when I was small. It was red, had beautiful silk tassels as bookmarks, and gilded pages. It’s much more worn, now.

I just am not sure what to do with it. I feel woefully uneducated as far as the Episcopalian calender is. The celebrations, etc. I feel as though I was not privy to a secret that everyone else knows.

For the first time in my life, I miss the structure of The Church.

My husband has promised to take me once to the Episcopal Cathedral here in Spokane, so I am secure about the trip there. We didn’t go during Christmas because the weather was so wet, and I knew it would be very crowded for the holiday services.

I want this New Year to be a good one.

Breakdown Theme: Merry Christmas


16 Dec

Tags: Christmas, panic attacks, Vile Words
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Well, I’m not sure what happened, but the chocolate Christmas theme seems to have broken. Fine. I don’t spend time anymore trying to fix these things. I had another in reserve and it is up now. The font was a bit on the tiny side, at least for me, so I made it a bit larger. Hopefully it isn’t gross looking in other browsers. I’ve checked it in Opera and Chrome, but not IE. There’s no way I’m ever opening it again. It’s a menace. I’ve noticed, that if I open it and check out a site, usually mine, javascript turns back on, and I get those stupid javascript errors again.

I hate IE and I hate that I can’t remove it.

Well, the lights are on the tree, as is the tinsel. Ornaments will go on tomorrow and then I’ll take photos.

We haven’t had the tree up for two years, and I’m glad we did so this year. One thing I’ve always loved about Christmas are the lights and the sparkle. The last two Christmases were hard, mentally, and I remember calling the Suicide Hotline once, and my mother, a lot.

With the panic attacks finally settling down, my nerves have been able to settle and I’m not losing my temper at every little thing, or jumping at the least bit of noise. It’s been weeks since I’ve wanted to maim the neighbor kids in one of my Vile Words stories. *grins* — Disclaimer — I don’t really want to hurt real live kids. Honestly. They just annoy me.

My Christmas cards are nearly done. They would have been mailed out today, but I had to buy stamps, so I have to wait another day before they can go out. Also, can someone tell me if the USPS postage calculator is off its gears in trying to tell me that it costs $10 to mail a letter to Canada??? I don’ thin’ so.

Well, I think I’ll close this post. It’s just rambling nonsense as I’ve passed the day and since it is now Thursday and I ought to be in bed, I am a-going.

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