Posts Tagged ‘nightmares’

I’m Not Allowed?


13 Nov

I’m not Catholic. I consider myself a lapsed Episcopalian since I haven’t been to church in nearly two decades.

Because I’m not Catholic, or part of any other denomination from where my lovely icons came from, I’m being told I’m being disrespectful.

Say what?

I love my rosary, which is highly black lacquered wood interspersed with brass beads from Poland. At the center of the cross there is a small magnifying dome over a very tiny printing of the Lord’s Prayer. My eyes don’t allow me to see it anymore, but I like knowing that it is there. I have it hanging on my bedpost right where I can touch it when I wake from some of my worst nightmares.

I don’t use my rosary to aid me in my prayers; I’m not sure I really know how. But do I disrespect it? No, I don’t. It brings me peace and sometimes I like wearing the rosary with my black dress (the one that my husband says makes me look like a little nun!). I rarely can go out on my own these days, and just having my rosary with me, gives me a bit of an encouragement boost to my spirit.

Here’s a photo of my most favorite icon, which I’m told I shouldn’t have hanging anywhere in my house because I’m not Catholic.

Mary_Postcard

This was a postcard that my great Aunt Lulu purchased when she visited the Vatican in 1945. My great aunt was Catholic. The postcard was given to my mother along with a prayer bible, a bookmark with the Lord’s Prayer on it and a pretty, small prayer card of silk embroidered with a prayer to the Virgin Mary.

My mom kept the postcard framed in cheap frames until she married dad in 1961 when she had it professionally framed. When I was born in 1962 mom hung the postcard in my nursery. She did the same with it for each of my brothers when they were born. I came into possession of the image after my parents divorce and when mom and I moved to Monterey, CA.

I kept the image hanging in my room until I was married. Then, for some odd reason, I hung the postcard in our bathroom behind the door. Any artist will tell you that it’s rather stupid hanging anything that is not proofed against steam and moisture in a bathroom. My mother told me quite a few times not to do that.

For sixteen years, the postcard has hung, behind the door, in various bathrooms. There is no mold, or any kind of corruption that you’d find with any other picture. The only damage it retains is from the time the framed image had some water drip upon the rough linen wrapped mat when cold weather broke some water pipes in our house in Hermann, MO and we were on vacation.

This will be buried with me because Mary has given me comfort and peace so many times in my life that I’m reluctant to let her go and I have no one to pass her onto.

Don’t tell me I’m not allowed. Peace, comfort, inspiration is available to all. No matter what form it might be in.

So, there.

Scary Movies


18 Oct

Richard and I went to see Paranormal Activity downtown yesterday. My love of scary movies has been changing of late mostly, I think, because the scare-directors of today seem more interested in grossing the audience out than making their imaginations really work.

How many of you can recall watching an old scary movie either with a parent nearby to protect you (in case the monster jumped from the tv and into your living room) or hid behind a couch, a pillow, or some such thing so you wouldn’t have to see the scary things (although you peeked)?

Can you say that the majority of today’s so called scary movies get the same reaction from you?

I hide when I see some of the new scary movies (Saw, Halloween sequels) because the scares don’t cause that delicious thumping adrenaline, but more often than not I am appalled or sickened.

Paranormal Activity is a truly, scary movie. It is a “back to the roots”, edge of your seat, hide your face in your boyfriend’s shoulder scary ride. The proof is in the box office. This is a movie that cost $11,000 to make over a seven day period.

From Cinematical:

Just take a look at that weekend box office. Sure, the critically panned Couples Retreat came in at #1, earning over $32 million on 3000 screens. But scan down the list and look at #4, which was Paranormal Activity. It earned $7.9 million on 160 screens. That’s not a typo. One hundred and sixty screens. If we take the average, Paranormal Activity earned $49,375 per screen, and Couples Retreat took in a paltry $10,666 per screen. That’s five times as many butts in the seats for the horror film than for the unfunny comedy (which means that there must have been a lot of empty seats at the latter). There’s a simple reason for this: Paranormal Activity is a genuinely scary movie.

demon-angelAdmittedly, I didn’t scream or jump at most of the “scary bits”. I did, however, keep Richard close, and watched a good portion with one eye open (lessens the scare impact… yeah). What was really fun was the nearly full theatre of teens and young adults. Their reactions, once they put away the cell phones, are what directors hope for. There was nervous laughter (the kind of laugh when you’re with your friends and you have to laugh or you’ll be a wuss). There were some genuine screams, too, followed by relieved laughter and exclamations of “wow, that was cool!”.

Now, why didn’t I care for it? When Richard and I leave a movie, the first question is “what did you think of it?” I can’t say I cared for the movie myself because it played upon old fears and nightmares I thought long ago gone. To be reminded of those fears is uncomfortable.

That doesn’t mean I didn’t appreciate the movie, because I did. It’s also why I feel good about recommending it.

If you leave the theatre griping about “not enough blood”, and “where were the decapitations”, then you’re an idiot.

What Tarot Card Are You?


16 Oct

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises. The Moon is a card of magic and mystery – when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

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For you Egyptologists out there — What is Your Egyptian Zodiac Sign? Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock’s Quizzles and Quandaries

Horus

Sparkling personality, intense will, intelligent, understanding, impatient to exert influence.

Colors: male: red carmine
female: gold

Compatible Signs:
Bastet, Geb

Dates: Apr 20 – May 7, Aug 12 – Aug 19

Role: God of the pharaoh

Appearance: Form of a falcon-headed man, wearing the double crown of Upper and Lower Egypt.

Sacred Animal: falcon

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