Posts Tagged ‘school’

Raising Awareness: Abuse


12 Jun

Here is a story I think everyone should read: Primary School. Why should you read it? It’s about what happens when we, ADULTS, don’t listen to what children are trying to say to us.

I read about abuse more and more these days and am appalled at how much it is out there. It sickens me. It makes me glad, in a bittersweet kind of way, that we couldn’t have children.

Children are annoying and adults are impatient. It’s the way it’s always been. However, we’re the grown-ups who are supposed to keep the young ones safe. We need to listen.

This story really touched me because it described rather closely what I went through when I was in school. I poured my heart into my stories, and my artwork. No adult ever picked up that I was hurting and being hurt.

So… read this story, adults, and listen.

Sunday Stealing 29er


16 May

Here we are once again, I’m doing the Sunday Stealing 29er meme, which sounded interesting. Care to join me?

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?

Credit card. I hate being reminded of how much we spent last month.

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?

Olive Garden – for my birthday

3. How many colleges did you attend?

One

4. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?

I’m wearing a dress. It’s cool and comfy.

5. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?

It didn’t go off, so I thought the clock was broken.

6. Last thought before going to sleep last night?

I hope my migraine doesn’t keep me up.

7. What do you miss being a child?

My parents.

8. What errand/chore do you despise?

Cleaning the bathroom. I think the dust bunnies are becoming intelligent.

9. Have you found real love yet?

Well… yeah.

10. What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart?

We have a K-Mart here. We buy my husband’s yearly bike there, sometimes shoes.

11. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?

Nope.

12. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?

Jason Isaacs as Capt. HookSeverus Snape – and NO, that doesn’t mean I want to have dinner with Alan Rickman. If you’re going to MAKE me choose a famous person then it would have to be… Jason Isaacs.

13. Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?

Nope. Cross my fingers, throw salt, and knock on wood.

14. Somewhere in California you’ve never been and would like to go?

Monterey. My mother’s there, and I met my husband there. It’s a great place to live, but good god a’mighty it’s freakin’ expensive! I know it said, ‘never been’, but I don’t wish to go anywhere else I haven’t been. I’m not comfortable doing that.

15. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?

Hell no! I’m still working on the first career and relationship. I expect to die when I get them perfected.

16. Do you have a “go to” person?

My husband. He ‘goes to’ work, he ‘goes to’ the store, he ‘goes to’ get my meds. Fun life, huh?

17. Are you where you want to be in life?

I always expected to be someplace else. It’s taken me all this time to not just accept where I am in life, but to be content and enjoy it. I think, if you can manage that, you’ve unlocked one of the many secrets of Life.

18. Over the years, what about you do you think has changed the most?

I’m more cynical. I used to make friends easily. I needed to be liked. I still want to be liked, but I can’t go near a possible relationship without a twenty-foot pole and some Bad Human Raid. Not only have people hurt me in “real life” but I’ve been hurt through the internet as well.

19. Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life?

Nooooooo!

20. Are there times you still feel like a kid?

Everytime I have a birthday. Ye gods, I just turned 47 and I can’t believe it.

21. Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager?

The corner adjacent to the Principal’s office where myself and four other outcasts stood for ten minutes before the start of classes bell rang. I didn’t really start “hanging out” with any friends until I was very nearly 30. Some very good, young friends, gave me a taste of youthful rebellion and we had some “interesting” times between the Monterey Sheraton, the Jack Swan Theatre, and Fisherman’s Wharf, in Monterey.

22. Who do you think impacted your life the most?

Cindy. She and I barely talk these days, neither of us write, and we don’t chat much online, either. However, she’s always going to be my best friend because she taught me how to enjoy life, even when I was freakin’ scared of it. Cindy opened doors I never imagined, not to mention she comped me to a lot of local theatre shows. Because of her, I had a stint in acting that was, surprisingly, fun and gave me quite a few memories. She’s one of the few, rare, honest to goodness, downright good people out there, so if you’re her friend, you’re damn lucky.

23. Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out for you?

Raymond D. Ham. He finally got it through my thick skull that I wasn’t stupid. He was one of the few adults that treated me as an adult; something he did for all his students. Because of his confidence in me, I was able to find a bit of bravery to prank him in front of the whole class. He left teaching when I graduated, and I think that was rather sad. I always had the feeling that his superiors didn’t appreciate him, but I hope he knew that his students, especially this one, did.

24. Do you tell stories that start with “when I was your age”?

I have no one to tell stories to. No kids. No neices or nephews nearby to tell things to.

25. What is the scariest thing that has happened to you as an adult?

Nearly bleeding to death in the hospital because no nurses believed me that I was still bleeding. Thank god that my surgeon came along and saw what was going on minutes before he was about to send me home.

26. What advice would you give to someone about to get married?

Be sure this is someone you want to spend the rest of your life with. If you don’t have confidence in the relationship, then don’t be an idiot. Don’t get married. I happen to believe that marriage is a committment.

27. What advice would you give someone starting their first job?

Do what your boss tells you to do and show up on time, but if you hate the job and you have an alternative, then take it. Don’t just sit there and take crap if you don’t have to. It’s not worth the stress. Me, I just went nuts. Literally.

28. If you could go back and change one thing you did, what would it be?

I’d learn to draw faces. I have neither the patience nor the energy to learn such a thing these days. It’s a pity, because although I’m quite a good abstract artist, it doesn’t allow me to draw the pictures in my mind.

29. If you could go back and change one thing someone else did, what would it be?

The person I’d like to change, I don’t believe could change, so I wouldn’t bother. There are just some things you have to accept, stop your regrets about it, and move forward. That’s what I’m trying to do.

Sunday Stealing: High School Meme


15 Mar

I hated high school, but I did the Sunday Stealing meme anyway. However, in the spirit of high school outcasts everywhere:

1. Did you date someone from your school?

One date and then he wanted me to marry him and have lots of children. He had twelve brothers and sisters and liked to shoot guns for fun.

2. Did you marry someone from your high school?

Hell no!

3. Did you car pool to school?

I walked through snow, on the highway. Yep, my story about walking three miles in hip deep snow is a true one.

4. What kind of car did you have?

Feet.

5. What kind of car do you have now?

Feet and public transport.

6. Its Friday night…where are you now?

Sitting. In. Front. of. The. Computer. Doing. This. Meme. DUH.

7. It is Friday night…where were you then?

Then when?

8. What kind of job did you have in high school?

Cleaned hotel rooms and then managed the same hotel on weekends. I was 15 and I earned a whopping $2.00 per hour.

9. What kind of job do you do now?

I get freaked out around crowds, have regular panic attacks, try not to kill teenagers, write short stories, write fan fiction…

10. Were you a party animal?

Pfffffffft. <---------- Scaredy Cat.

11. Were you considered a flirt?

I read books, wrote, and sometimes hung out at cemeteries.

12. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir?

Choir. I didn’t like it, but the choir teacher was a pilot, who owned a small plane, and took her students up in it.

13. Were you a nerd?

No. An Oddball, i.e. Outcast. The weird kids. That’s what we were called. There were six of us. One had a tractor fall on him. One had a concave chest. One looked like the father of carrot top. One was secretly gay. And I was poor.

14. Did you get suspended from school?

No. I punched my principal in the stomach and had to go to Anger Management.

15. Can you sing the fight song?

Nope.

16. Who was/were your favorite teacher?

Raymond D. Ham.

17. Where did you sit during lunch?

By myself.

18. What was your school’s full name?

Hermann High School.

19. Where did you party the most?

I didn’t. Did I mention, I shot guns once?

20. What was your school mascot?

Beats me.

21. Would you do it again?

Not on your ever-lovin’ life.

22. Did you have fun at Prom?

Didn’t go.

23. Do you still talk to the person you went to Prom with?

I didn’t go. What part of the word “Oddball” didn’t you understand?

24. Are you planning on going to your next reunion?

They don’t know where to find me and I’m leaving it like that.

25. Do you still talk to people from school?

Not if I can help it.

26. What are/were your school’s colors?

I have no idea. Scarlet, maybe?

Here’s a little something extra:

I spent four hours doing the whole graduation procession, ceremony, etc. Standing the entire time. On three inch heels. When I was called up for my diploma, and walked back to the lunchroom where all the graduates were assembled for the final procession, I opened my little fancy folder to look at my diploma and found a torn piece of paper with my name on it.

I left, refusing to walk in the final procession the moment myself and a few other students learned we weren’t getting our diplomas until we took finals that would bring our grades up to passing in the classes we were failing. I was failing Physics (which is a whole ‘nother “Nightmare High” story).

By the time I was walking out of the school, my feet were so crippled by the high heels (which ALL the girls HAD to wear) my parents had to carry me to the car.

My final triumph though came when I passed the Physics Final, went into the principal’s office to pick up my stupid diploma, and instead of waiting in the auditorium until class was dismissed at 3:30pm (about 3 hours) I, and five other torn paper receivers, walked out of Hermann High School.

I have no idea where my diploma is, and I don’t care.

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