Posts Tagged ‘ulcer’

I Hurt, I’m Tired, I’m Cranky


01 Oct

And don’t tell me I need a nap!!!

Because I’m overweight, I threw out my swayback a couple of days ago. Having a swayback is a hazard anyway, and it is far too easy to throw it out of whack. My glorious career as a hotel maid went by the wayside because everytime I picked up a corner of a bed mattress to put on a sheet, I was in danger of throwing out the swayback. As it was, at the peak of good health, and age (I cleaned rooms between 14 and 25 years old) I threw out my stupid swayback at least twice a month. Damn swayback didn’t get the message and kept coming back.

I have never had my swayback go out just because I’m overweight. Well, now it’s happened.

Yes, I know it’s my own fault, and I knew where I was headed. It still didn’t force me to get up and move, nor did it stop me from having that extra bowl of frosted mini wheats. So, if you value your life, don’t criticize me there.

swaybackI spent a day walking around with the husband downtown. A pleasant day. I couldn’t keep up with him, and my legs, knees, and hips were hurting. I never said a thing, though. No complaints.

That was it, though. Hitting bottom. I didn’t want another day like that.

So, I am trying to change my situation, but it’s very hard. Just jumping in and doing exercises isn’t that easy. I’m not really sure what to do, other than walk. I wish I had someone to exercise with, but I don’t. It’s tough to make friends when you rarely leave the house. And, I love my husband, but he won’t exercise with me. He won’t join a gym with me, and he’s not so great in the diet area either. Turkey, spaghetti, and spicey soup are his staples. Turkey should only be at Thanksgiving, not once a week. Spaghetti and spicey soup are foods I can no longer entertain because my ulcer keeps breaking up the party.

With all this, added to that damned, mysterious twitching pain in my left side, and a migraine as the cherry, I had a really cruddy night last night. I had to take extra medication (which dried out my mouth further), call the Nurses Hotline to make certain I wasn’t accidentally O.D.’ing by also taking my migraine meds (I wasn’t), and my swayback was refusing to get comfortable in my bed. I wound up sleeping, fitfully, sitting upright on the couch, while keeping a piece of gum in my mouth. At least now I know I will keep the gum in my mouth instead of spitting it out into my hair.

Today, I still hurt, but am taking my muscle relaxant and a pain reliever. I keep falling asleep wherever, and I’m fecking cranky.

Be Honest


24 Sep

I saw this at Solonor’s Facebook page. I’m spending too much time there. Especially since I linked my blog there.

Anyway, see if you can answer these questions honestly. Honestly, I was expecting more nosy questions, but thought these were pretty mild.

Fill in the answers…honestly…

1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
1/4 of Methocarbamol – a muscle relaxant for the mysterious pain in my left side.

2.Where was your profile picture taken?
I don’t use photos of myself. I either turn my artwork into an avatar, or I use the faces of characters from movies or books that I’m currently obsessed with. My current, Facebook avatar is from one of my hand abstract drawings that features eyes. My current Gravatar is… *runs to look* Snape.

3.Can you play Guitar Hero?
Can you play Dueling Banjos? Nooooo.

4.Name someone who made you laugh today?
First Jack, then Tracy, then Mom. Did you know (according to Tracy, the Tennesean) that today is Thursdeh?

5.How late did you stay up last night and why?
Until 3am. That was an early night for me. The med I am taking for pain makes me sleepy so I’ve been taking a lot of spontaneous naps.

6.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Nope.

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Nope. Hate fireworks. Too loud.

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Let’s see, I think Cindy is the closest in or around Monterey/Carmel.

9. Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
Nope. I have no ex-husbands, but I have a few ex-boyfriends who’d look great with their faces scraped on pavement after I ran a bus over them.

10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper?
He and I parted ways some months ago. It seems he was a contributor to an ulcer that had taken up residence in my stomach lining. We’re polite if we see each other, but we don’t talk, and he was never able to write.

11. When was the last time you cried really hard?
I cried over the frustration of my body turning, once more, against me.

12. Who took your profile picture?
If it’s Snape, we’ll blame Colin Creevy (you have to be up on your Harry Potter lore to know who he is). If it’s a piece of artwork, I drew it.

Claudius - no red-eye13. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
I don’t take photos of people. I think it’s kind of intrusive. And, who knows, there might be something to that “soul stealing” thing the natives whisper about.

14. Was yesterday better than today?
Today is fine.

15. Can you live a day without TV?
Yes. I don’t turn the TV on until about 6pm. These days, it’s mostly noise for the dogs, and company for me when Richard is at work.

6. Are you upset about anything?
I’m doped up with anti-anxiety meds. I’m good.

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Of course.

18. Are you a bad influence?
Not anymore. My last transgression was almost nine years ago when I taught my second cousins (an 8 year old and a 5 year old) to call their father “spango head”.

19. Night out or night in?
Night in. Are you crazy? I’m not stepping out at night, not even to toss something into the recycle bin!

20. What items could you not go without during the day?
My meds. If I’m leaving the house, I gotta have my purse, which has some emergency meds, my wallet, my ID, and my ATM and Credit Card.

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
My dad in Branson, MO hospital. He never really woke up.

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
I don’t “text”.

23. How do you feel about your life right now?
Despite the -isms of my body, it’s good.

24. Do you hate anyone?
It’s a waste of energy.

25. If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find?
A whole lotta of invites for Farm stuff, hearts, drinks, flowers and what-not. I ignore them.

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
Probably not.

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
I was called a piece of artwork, does that count?

28. What song is stuck in your head?
“Carnival” by Pribek. It’s one of the few I don’t mind having stuck in my head. Something about it just absolutely fascinates me and lately, I can’t end the day without playing it.

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?
I don’t want anyone knocking on my window at 2am! Richard, though, would like it to be Bigfoot.

30.Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50?
That’s gonna be a bit tough since I don’t have kids.

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Work some more on my chapter-ed fan fic, so I don’t disappoint my readers.

32. Do you think too much or too little?
Thinking works for me. Whether it’s too little or too much… I dunno.

33. Do you smile a lot?
I do. What’s weird, though, is that a lot of times I’m smiling when no one is around.

Back In the Saddle Again


25 Nov

We went to see The Fountain today. It’s an absolutely beautiful movie, but there is so much symbology in it, that I’m still processing much of it.

My brother’s band just had THE BEST poster in the world made for them recently. You can click on the link to view a much larger, high res image if you’d like.

Pribek - Poster by Stillson

Let’s see: in health news, I believe my ulcer is beginning to heal. It’s feeling much better and the “hunger pang” pain is very much muted. Going on Thursday to see the doc and to discuss a bunch of stuff. I think she’ll be happy to see my food journal, although she won’t be happy about the food in it. Can’t say that I am either. I’m eating a pretty high carb diet, which I MUST change. Yay… not.

Actually, what’s tough about it is trying to find the right proteins and fibers to add to my diet that aren’t loaded with fat and sugar. It just makes you want to take a five-iron to your head.

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